Espresso and billows of cigarette smoke
start your life each day, to underwrite andelevate the squeaky neurosis you display.
Freud and Prozac and Xanax keep you level
but flat, add 60 milligrams of amphetamines
to get your motivation back.
Some say its “creative style” while others say
“you’re very ill” as civilized, certified doctorsproclaim: “swallow every pill!” No more
“Carpe Diem” nor “beckoning to swim out
further,” celebrate you right to cope,
with therapeutic fervor.
Your fading friends alas, contend: “your
brain is now asleep!” Just tweak your doseand animated you will arise and leap! Skies
ginger with days ablaze cobalt space,
your ability to marvel struggles in
a foggy and muddled place.
Synapses firing, “Control!” my mind has ordered
Norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors…dreamsCarl Jung has ordered. Dopamine, Zoloft or
Ambien, competition to attend, the
imagined dangers that never
really end.
© 2012 Julie Heckman
About the Author
Julie Heckman
Born in Chicago I became a Californian at three years old.
After the usual teenage drama I entered California State University Los
Angeles. There I procured a MA in Art degree and spent the next fifteen years
owning my own graphic design firm, Julian Berlin Productions, that produced
greeting card among other things that were sold throughout the US Europe and
Canada. I became interested in Teaching 7th grade and returned to
University again for a Teaching Credential. I taught for four years. After this
I went back to university to the School of Theology at Claremont and procured a
Masters of divinity and a Doctor of Ministry. I worked as a minister for a few
years then became disabled and retired. Now I spend most my days reading and
writing poetry.